At first
frequently
often

I speed the pulse
check the discerning issues
Relapse and Recognize slowly all the while
inhale

hold it.

eyes gone fishing,
quieted pulse crescendo into
worrypools beckoning with undertow signs  attached
but peak out instead   slowly   for a half mile
exhale

remember.

The curve of her, the sepia tint of them   in still life, the scent of her removal,
Comes flooding back,
calms the otherwise disquiet of a heart living paycheck to paycheck.